Longing

So, is it OK to almost use a blog as a cheap form of a journal? I mean, I'm NEVER going to handwrite in a journal, it's just not going to happen, so maybe this would be a good way of writing down thoughts and stuff. Let's just hope I don't wander into areas that are best left out of the public eye.

Speaking of which, I'm not sure I get why most people like to have such a large chunk of their lives private. I'm all about some general open information sharing between persons, and especially between friends. Like what's it to me if I tell you what we paid for our house? Seems pretty innocuous to me...

Pretty sure I'm already in trouble; Say and I have differing views on that subject!

What I was really thinking about was CS Lewis's The Weight of Glory, and his very accurate descriptions of a certain pining that we all seem to do. I can see God's point; he wants us to long for him in ways that will never be satisfied on earth, but it still leaves us in a bind. How else do you explain being sad at the end of a particularly good day? I think it's because, no matter how good everything is, it's never good enough. And of course God rides in to save the day, but really I guess he doesn't until you die. So here we are, pining away, and all the meanwhile God reserves the ultimate joys for when we leave the mortal life. Kind've a bummer, really.

So the answer of course is to Trust God, and I try to and want to, but I also feel like in some ways he's holding out on me. And no, he doesn't owe me anything, but I'll be derned if it wouldn't be nice to see him once in a while.

Ya'll think about it